honestav

To know the vulnerable and candid songs of honestav is to know Av Freeman: a determined, kindred soul who, in the face of unimaginable odds and loss, found himself a breakout hit with 2024’s “I’d Rather Overdose” and a ticket out of rural Missouri. Growing up the youngest of four brothers and a sister, he caught the music bug early: “They all wanted to be rockstars,” Av says. “I was a little kid going and watching my sixteen-year-old brother play screamo shows in bowling alleys and pizza joints. I was hooked. I wanted it bad.”

He split his time between his parents, spending half the month with his mother and half with his dad. “My mom was the worst tweaker ever,” he explains. “She lived in the hood and got arrested multiple times selling meth.” Life with his father was relatively stable, but still not comfortable. “There was no A.C. and no food,” Av says, “but I was going to school and playing sports. Half the month, I was the quarterback, and the other half, I was running around with no socks, smoking cigarettes with the worst kids.”

From the start, Av’s music was a response to tragedy; at age fifteen, Av found his brother dead from suicide. Amid this grief, Av adopted a tough-guy rap persona. He recorded music obsessively, releasing a song a week for over a hundred weeks in a row. “Literally for two years,” he says. “Sometimes I’d drop even more. I’d record four songs in a night and post two of them.” These years of experimentation reveal themselves in Av’s blend of folk and hip-hop, which sees scratchy verses layered over sensitive acoustic guitars.

After graduating high school, Av paid his bills selling weed. “I thought that’s how I was going to live,” he says. “I’d just be a dude that sells weed. I didn’t even think about the rockstar thing.” Then he got hired as a mover. He held that job for four years. “It was a grind, and I stayed up in the studio every night,” he remembers. “I’d go to work at 6:30 AM after being up until 4 AM recording music. It was draining.”

When Av started making jokes on TikTok, he believed he had finally found his way out. The social media platform paid for views, and his videos reached millions and millions of viewers. “At first I thought, ‘I’m about to get rich.’ I quit my job and shit. But I started spending all my money on studio time. I made enough to afford an apartment, but I was living out of my truck.”

But in January of 2024, tragedy struck again. Av’s father committed suicide. On the truck ride home, Av, through tears, wrote a new song documenting his emotions. Rushing to the studio, Av cut the track and uploaded it as had become routine. Almost overnight, “I’d Rather Overdose” exploded, cracking multiple Billboard charts and amassing over 70 million streams globally. The subsequent remix featuring MOD SUN, teased through an open verse challenge on TikTok, peaked at #21 on Alternative Radio. “When my dad died, music turned into therapy for me,” Av says. “I’m not making songs to be cool anymore—this is what I gotta do to get through the day. I’m lucky that people hear it.” Now, following a bidding war between every major label, Av is on track to purchase his first home.

Building on the success of “I’d Rather Overdose,” honestav released his debut EP, "hara-kiri," on November 9th, which peaked at #10 on Apple Music’s Alternative Charts and garnered over 110 million streams across all platforms. The EP included the lead single, "Hurts To Fall in Love," which received significant radio airplay success. In 2024, honestav expanded his reach by embarking on a highly successful tour alongside MOD SUN and lovelytheband. His electrifying live performances led to sold-out shows in his hometown of Springfield, Missouri, as well as major cities like New York City and Los Angeles. These achievements underscore his growing fanbase and the widespread appeal of his music. Following the momentum of his debut EP and successful tours, honestav is excited to announce future projects, including his debut solo Midwest "No License Tour" slated for 2025, which promises to bring his heartfelt performances to even more fans across the region. Additionally, fans can look forward to the upcoming release of "hara-kiri Deluxe," featuring new tracks and the highly anticipated lead single "Growing Pains," set to drop in February 2025. This new track is poised to resonate deeply with listeners, continuing his trajectory of chart-topping hits and emotional storytelling.

His newest music is rugged and open. honestav belts rhymes about partying and drug addiction, self-loathing and suicide, stifling emotions and trying to open up. “When my brother killed himself, I turned into a punk ass sixteen-year-old,” he says. “When my dad did it, it hit different. It took a different spin. I’m a grown ass man now. If I wasn’t making these songs, I don’t think I’d be alive.” Still, Av is shocked that this intimacy and introspection connected with such a wide audience. “It seems like people actually started to relate more when I stopped making music for everyone else,” he says. “That’s when they really started listening.”

Despite his deep roots in the country, honestav has faced pressures from industry executives and even other artists to lean into familiar tropes of country music. However, Av has a strong sense of identity and remains true to his unique sound. “I grew up in the country, but I wasn’t farming,” he clarifies. “I’m from that, but I’m not that. My homies were farming, but I was riding dirt bikes and busting out windows.” With the success he’s found by trusting his instincts, Av is determined to keep his music close to his heart, blending his background with his alternative influences to create something truly authentic.

With a proven track record of chart success, including “I’d Rather Overdose” reaching multiple Billboard charts and its remix achieving significant radio airplay success, sold-out performances, and a rapidly expanding fanbase, honestav is poised to make a significant impact on the alternative music landscape. His authentic voice and unwavering dedication continue to inspire and connect with listeners around the world.